Friday, April 28, 2006
was on my bed.. lights out.. all by myself. listening to the korean drama "full house" theme song, "i think i".. memories enveloped my mind, tears came like falling rain. even those memories which i haven't thought of came to me.. strange. this song just triggers it. i wanted to stop crying.. but i refused to stop playing the song. it gives me this bittersweet feeling. bitter and sweet memories.. all came back to me just now.
outside the old changi hosp, when he 1st held my hand..
at the chalet's balcony, chatting together, us holding hands again..
sitting on the bed, listening to the "indian pop songs" together..
walked to the nearby 7-11 to buy some snacks during wee hours..rainy cold nite.. him holding an umbrella, while i clunged onto his arm.. he wore one of my slippers and i wore one of his..
the nite when i put my head on his body and fell aslp even though it wasn't comfy..
the time when he placed the blanket on me when i fell aslp..
the nite when he asked me to be his girlfriend..
the 1st hug he gave me..
every hug that he gave me..
the 1st kiss he gave me..
our every kisses..
the time when i leaned against him with my head..
the many times he gave in to me..
the time when he was angry and rejected my calls..
the times when we hugged and cried together when his parents found out bout us..
the time when we cried in the classroom when he asked for a break-up cos' of his parents..
the time when i didn't go to school cos' i was too upset to..and he came to look for me...and i hugged him, refused to let go of him..and we patched up.
the walk to sunplaza park..
every thursday night we'd watch our "autumn in my heart" show together..then smsed each other, telling how much we loved, cherished and would nv be apart after every episodes..
the many times when we said, "sarang-he" and i called him "oppa"..
the time when we watched "a walk to remember" together..
the time when we both wore bermuda and t-shirt and sandals out together..
the many times when i pinched and twisted his nipples when he bullied me..
the unforgettable and memorable camp trip we had at pasir ris park..
the "wrestling" game we had and i won!
the night when he pecked on my forehead lightly, and he thought i was aslp when actually i was pretending to be aslp..
the time when i lay on his laps and he sang "sugar rush" to me..
the time when he asked me out of the classroom during recess break and sang "all about you" to me..
the surprises he gave me on my 2002 bday..
the me-to-you bear he gave me on v day..
the teddy bear he gave me for christmas present..
the many arguments we had..and after every argument, we'd cherish each other even more..
the times when he nv fails to pinch my cheeks..
the times when i always teased him for being so "black"..
the time when i asked if he's left and he told me he hadn't.. when i went down to look for him, he was nowhere to be found.. until minutes later, i saw him running toward me. only realised he'd boarded the bus and ran back just for me..
the time when he shaved his hair...to 'tell' me that he really was serious abt breaking up..
the many times i cried when i was reminded of him..
the number of years "waiting" for him..
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the list just goes on...
i've let go of him, but why am i still thinking of him? ahh.. the korean song!
"i think i love you..cos i think i miss you..
i'm falling for you..now i need you.."
should i sms him b4 he serves ns? if not, i don't think i have the chance to sms for at least 2-3 years..
sensitive,emotional & sentimental; [ 8:21 PM ]